“She had not known the weight until she felt the freedom.”
― Nathaniel Hawthorne, The Scarlet Letter

I’ve started and stopped this post about ten times now. Not because I’m afraid or worried about what people will think or say. Mostly because once I settled into the reality of me, I ceased giving a shit about what people thought about who I was or what I was.

Then something came up very recently and I thought; Well, I should put something out there.

I’m going to be writing this from a purely personal voice. Nothing professional about it. The time is right for me to talk about this because it’s Pride Month and well, a neutral time for me. And it kind of saddens me that I have to lay this out with those factors in mind but it is what it is and people are who they are.

Just like I am who I am.

So, in the spirit of Pride Month and coming out, I would like to tell all of you I am agender.

I know, right? Birds didn’t fall from the sky, the erupting volcano down the street from my mom’s house is still going at it and my dog still eats cat shit out of the litter box.

So let me back this ramen cart up a bit and talk about why I’m sharing this.

A little bit is because I’m irritated (mostly at myself) but I’ll get into that later.

Anger is one of the most stupidest of reasons to be talking about this because honestly, I’ve always known I’m not a girl or a boy. I’ve just never given a shit once I settled there. I’ve always been a mix. And not the social construct of gender identity but rather the sheer lack of identifying with either one. Ask anyone who knows me and they’ll tell you I’m not much of a joiner of things. I’m so much of a non-joiner, I opted out of a gender.

I’ve never felt like a girl or a boy. And I struggled with that. I’ve struggled the fuck out of that. I’ve explored being more femme and trying to see if I wasn’t really a guy. I tried male on. It didn’t fit. Neither did female. There were a lot of identity things that caused a lot of confusion, heartache, rage, loneliness and most of all, disassociation from society and people.

At the end of it all, I realized one very significant thing… it just didn’t fucking matter. Continue reading “The Not-So-Scarlet A” →

Bonjour et bonjour!

C’est un cri spécial à mes lecteurs français que je vais faire un effort particulier pour pirater mes mots avec ma petite connaissance française et un mauvais Google Traduction!

Je voulais vous mettre à jour sur les livres de Sinners, car plusieurs d’entre vous m’ont récemment demandé le calendrier des traductions. À l’heure actuelle, les trois premiers livres sont sortis et le quatrième, Sloe Ride, sera publié en juillet, donc pas longtemps à attendre!

Je suis également heureux d’annoncer que 415 Ink: Rebel sortira à l’automne et c’est très excitant pour moi de partager cela avec le public français.

En ce qui concerne les fantasmes urbains, Black Dog Blues et Mad Lizard Mambo (les deux livres de la série Kai Gracen) ainsi que Dim Sum Asylum sont également traduits, donc si vous aimez l’action et l’aventure, j’espère que vous les apprécierez.

J’espère vous voir tous au Salon du Livre de Paris en mars 2019! Je serai là avec certains de mes collègues auteurs Dreamspinner Press comme TA Moore, CS Poe et Bru Baker ainsi que d’autres. Je mettrai à jour la liste des auteurs quand je saurai qui d’autre viendra. J’espère également voir tout le monde chez MxM et Reines-Beaux! ET l’incroyablement talentueuse et magnifique Rose Darcy pour qui j’ai une intense adoration et admiration.

Merci à tous pour votre soutien et pour m’avoir contacté. J’apprécie chacun d’entre vous. J’espère vous voir tous en mars. Et beaucoup d’amour!

Good Morning and Hello!

This is a special shout out to my French readers whom I shall make a special effort to hack at my words with my little French knowledge and a bad Google Translate!

I wanted to update you all about the Sinners books since quite a few of you have asked me recently about the translations schedule. Right now, the first three books are out and the fourth, Sloe Ride, will be released in July so not long to wait!

I also am happy to announce 415 Ink: Rebel will be out in the Fall and that is very exciting for me to share that with the French audience.

As for the urban fantasies, Black Dog Blues and Mad Lizard Mambo (the two books in the Kai Gracen series) as well as Dim Sum Asylum  are translated as well so if you like action and adventure, I hope you enjoy them.

I do so hope to see all of you at the Paris Salon du Livre in March 2019! I shall be there with some of my fellow Dreamspinner Press authors like TA Moore, CS Poe and Bru Baker as well as others. I will update the author list when I know who else is coming. I am also hoping to see everyone at MxM and Reines-Beaux! AND the incredibly talented and gorgeous Rose Darcy for whom I have an intense adoration and admiration.

Thank you all for your support and for reaching out to me. I appreciate each and every one of you. I hope to see you all in March. And much love!

And you know… I have pictures. But mostly of food to taunt friends with.

We had a fantastic reader meetup at Faces and Names. We were loud. The music got louder. Pretty sure they kept turning it up hoping we’d get the hell out. No, really the staff was great and the event was awesome.

There’s “red carpet” photos of the event someplace which I’m going to have to hunt down. Dreamspinner’s Elizabeth North and Lynn West attended with me, CS Poe and Greg Tremblay. Michael Nava met us there and we did a couple of carpet shots with him and well, he also showed us where the bar was. I think. It’s a blur. 😀 But he is awesome and my company of DSP and narrator were fantastic. The ceremony was fun, touching and a great time. And I am so damned thrilled to have been a finalist. Congrats really to all the winners of this year’s Lammys and the finalists because damn, there was some mighty fine company to be keeping this year.

This is going to be a pretty quick post only because I’m about 4K or so away from the end of Kai 3 and I’ve got an edit looming and the dog misses me. Or so he is saying. He could just want treats. You never know with him.

Love you all and thank you so much for your support. You all rock and damn, you’re the best.