Yes. I can see this.

I think the worst part about this is that I (with my brain spiciness) puts a lot of faith into people telling me how they are my friends. Now I have to trust that because fucking hell, I can’t read emotions for shit. Everything is DANGER.

Sadly, it also means I don’t notice when people are actually shitty to me and toxic until they do something SO fucked up that I’m like… Hey, why do you keep setting my head on fire? That’s not nice.

The flip side of this? People also assume I might be doing something sneaky or manipulative to “get them”. I can tell you that if I do something petty, it’s pretty obvious. Hell, I don’t even do practical jokes much. 😀

The worst part about this whole spiced ham brain? When people who are supposed to love and protect you are more into hurting you, you are CONVINCED it must be something you’ve done wrong or if you could just explain it a different way then they’d understand.

No. They’re just being mean. And it hurts even more when you realize it.

There is no space in the “normal” world for people on the spectrum. We know this. I know this. It’s just a matter of us waking up every morning and deciding if we have the energy to fight ALL the battles or just some of them.