A phone call with my mother revealed something interesting… I believe she thinks I’m an atheist.

I am not. I just don’t think organized religion is set up to do a lot beyond keeping the organization alive and profitable.

And I know there are exceptions. Small churches, temples, and such with a focus on bringing comfort and healing to their flock. Groups who seek out an understanding of the world and its people. People who are determined to stoke the good in humanity through their works and generous spirits.

I don’t deny the power of the Universe and its Creation. I just think a lot of organizations are like political parties… do anything you can to keep the machine going even though there are people within the organization who truly want to do good. They are often blocked or stymied by those who view service to humanity as “Well, we have ours and that’s all that matters.”

Do I believe that once we are done we leave this existence to go back and be cradled by the Universe? Of course I do. There’s a kind of science about that. We are energy and matter. We have a consciousness that is greater than bits of electricity going through spongy grey meat. Energy has to go somewhere. It doesn’t just cease to exist. Same with matter. All matter… water, flesh, chemicals… all of that. It doesn’t disappear. It is all absorbed back into the Universe around it and where does a consciousness go? No idea but that is a great mystery of Life and one we all should ponder on.

I believe in doing good because that’s what you do. I don’t need a Hell to make me dance like a dog in heels. That doesn’t make sense. Free will means we choose to be who we are, what we are. And to also decide the actions of those around us does not mean we act in the same manner. Even when the little voices in your head tells you to bite their faces off.

Oh, that little voice.

So yeah, here I am. Just trying to not bring shit and filth with me when I go back into the Universe.